Posted on February 3, 2009


you are strong but you’re needy, humble but you’re greedy
based on your body language, you shouted cursive i’ve been reading
your style is quite selective, though your mind is rather reckless
well, i guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is
                                                                                   ~ jason mraz, a beautiful mess

i’ve been a ball of something weird lately.  i don’t know what it is.  perhaps b/c i’ve never really been “it” before.  everything i’ve been through and experienced has always been riddled with a sideshow of sadness and turmoil.  nothing has every stayed “it” for long.  but now… “it” seems to be staying even if the sideshow is along for the ride. 

my “it” is  finally being able to look in the mirror and like the reflection i see.  my “it” is loving every moment i have to complain about it being so cold. 

one day, very soon, that sideshow will realize that it was never welcome to begin with.  and one day, very soon, it’ll creep away as quietly as it entered.